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May. 28th, 2007

Monday Memorial Day

mood: cranky cranky
music: Classical 101
Monday! another Holiday! Where are you? Here I sit thinking of her. Feeling a LITTLE blue, not even a call. I am not going over there unannounced. She says she cares for me and likes me a lot. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!! yeah but always a but! she has to much baggage? to much past? Life is full of shit! I am sick of this ughhhh I am so frustrated with all of this. I cant meet someone I like and have a shot load in common with and then of course, her ex moves in, her other ex is dying, she is needing some room etc.....

What about what i need. YEah i know selfish right, me me me emememememememememe, what about me. I always have to wait for what just find another my frenz say. 

Another what, another dream another chance for happiness, i doubt it. I miss being married and kids and all. The family, my family. I know i should not give up, i am not. I am just giving up on another dream i guess. It sux. Life sux and then you die.

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May. 25th, 2007

Another Rainy Day!

location: WORKY
mood: busy busy
music: 99.5 the wolf
Ok here goes. It rained bad yesterday, hail and such. I was at home hoping to go to Bike night at Sonic like every other thursday. No such luck, it came down like cats and dogs. Why people say that I dont really know. I really wanted to go to see if she would show up on her bike. Thats where we met and then lost her, its funny the night I met Jenny, cool here comes a dream sequence, dont you here the sound of chimes and everything goes fuzzy etc... day dream coming on, I will try to write as I pull up this goodand yet funny memory.

It was the 10th of may, Thursday nite, i was running early that night, usually I wouldn't show up until late 9ish 10ish. On this nite I had been in contact with my best friends little sister, ok i know what your thinking because he thinks it too. I do not want his sister. Shes alright, but anyways thats another story for another time. We had emailed earlier in the day. The ususal watz up? wat u doin? hows your kid etc..ok then honest to god, ok I asked her what u doin tonite? she said nothing as usual and you. I said i was going to Bike nite at sonic and just being cordial you know manners, i asked her if she wanted to go. I had asked her a while back and she always said not no, but an excuse you know, no babysitter, gotta work early, etc.. Well this night to my surprise she said "yes, I have no school tomorrow or anything, i even have a babysitter." Opps , ok we going. I figured she would back out later since it was early. Now back to our story of meeting Jenny.

I pulled up to the Sonic and it was just around 8pm ishhhh, it was startn to get kind of full, considering it had rained earlier in the week. So i parked on the west side, facing the buffet place. I had just parked and met a guy on a Honda CBR, all black 600RR, i believe. Nice ass bike and we were chating about moving up to a 1000. When out of the corner of my eye, i see a shadow walking from my left to right, it aint walkn like no dude. As she walks into my view and under the not very well lit west side of sonic. I see her for the first time. PINK motorcycle jacket, chaps.....yeah chaps sexy as hell to me. and her helmet by her side. I smile and so does she. I am sitting on my bike legs up tryn to look cool. Ok i look cool. LOL. I say HI! whats up? She says Hi! You lookn like a biker chick, who you ride with i ask? She gives me that funny look like what did i just say? Then she says I have a bike.

Really, you have a bike. Cool i say, my heart starts beating faster. Where let me see it. Where you parked. She smiles and feeling like me about our ninjas, we almost skip over to where she is parked. As soon as i see her I know this girl is for me. BABY NINJA! Its my old bike, my first crotch rocket, the 250R ninja. All the memories come back. I loved that bike. I traded that bike for my new NINJA 650R. Here is a girl a woman with my old bike. She tells me she has not been riding to long, she went to class and she loves it, no car, no truck, just her and her bike. I have a nice vehicle, but like her I would rather be on my bike. A fellow biker for sure, i just didnt know at the time how much we had in common. 

I gotta go for now wil finish this soon.

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May. 24th, 2007

Dont be mr nice guy forever???

location: LA CASA
mood: creative creative
music: 102.1 the edge
A woman can seem like she's interested one
minute, then stand-offish the next.

   So rule #1 is:

   JUST BECAUSE SHE'S DOING SOMETHING THAT SAYS "I
LIKE YOU", DON'T THINK THAT IT MEANS "I LIKE YOU
NO MATTER WHAT".

   Much better to interpret subtle "I like you"
cues as "I like you for a second, but if you start
acting like a Wuss Bag or a Dumb Ass, it will all
be over in an instant".

   Unfortunately for most guys, they take "I like
you" signals to mean "You've won my approval, now
you can do whatever you want".

   And what do they do? Of course...

   They turn into dorks, say or do a few stupid
things, and destroy it all.

   Oh, how many times I've watched guys (myself
included) screw up perfectly good situations
because they just didn't get this concept.

   Let me give you an example.

   Let's say that you're out with a woman, and
you've been teasing her, and she smiles and says,
"I like you".

   A typical "male" response is for a guy to think
to himself "OK, I'm in... she digs me" and to get
that rush in the head and chest.

   Next thing you know, he's acting different.

   He's talking about different things.

   He's giving compliments.

   He's being "nicer".

   And what's the woman thinking while this is all
going on? Of course... she's thinking, "Uh oh, his
cool, calm, interesting personality was just a
cover for the secret inner-Wuss that was hiding
out, waiting for a little bit of approval from
me... AHHHHHH!"

   Women KNOW that they're in control of the
situation. Or at least MOST of the time they
are... and they THINK that they are even during
the times when they're not.

   They're constantly using different kinds of
communication to test and "feel out" the
situation.

   Remember, MOST of the time when you're saying
something that you think is nice, charming, and
original, it's something that a woman has heard
about 47 times that week from other guys.

   We guys act VERY predictably most of the time.

   And women know how to tell if you're just
another loser who's pretending to be cool... who
will turn into an average Wuss at the first sign
of attraction from a cute woman.

   Think about what I just said.

   This is hard for a lot of guys to swallow...
but it's the reality of the situation.



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Not for the weak of heart! The truth must be told!

location: LA CASA
mood: curious curious
music: 106.7
If you meet a hotttttt girl, you can be
dammmmm sure of a few things:

1) She gets approached by dudes, one way or another,
all the dammmmmm time.

2) 99% of the boyzz that she meets and dates wind up
following her around like pussies... either from
the beginning or eventually all them sick ass mfs.

3) When a guy acts "too nice - too soon", she sees
this as a sign of neediness and weakness, and
she's repelled by it.

   I realize that this is going to sound like some
kind of bizarre Zen self-help B.S., but sometimes
you have to push things away from you gently in
order to bring them to you.

   And beautiful women fall into this category.

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whats love?

location: LA CASA
mood: chipper chipper
music: 102.1
I have love, and lost, they say it is better to have loved, and lost then to have never loved at all. What say you? I have felt the pain of jealousy, the agony of loneliness, and the angst wow angstttt.....of losing a loved one. I have a new interest, i hope to calm my infatuation for her, i want her, i need her, I love her, with all my heart. Yeah its a song so what ,is it pain, no its wanting to be near even when your far, it's wanting to see them when you have a picture right there. Its standing up for your partner in a fight it starting a quarrel just to make up. WHat is love? I love to be loved and fear not loving again. You tell me what love is?

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